Artificial-Indivdual

So Im gonna try to be more active on here not that it really matters none. But looking at my old entries and deviations I have that embarrassed feeling because of reasons anywho. I doubt anyone will read this.

Its so funny to me how much my emotions personally effect my art for instance i was so enthralled with some one that i began to create and create and life seemed to be dripping with nectar and happiness it was so sickly-sweet-saturated facade of what life really is and how cruel it really is and how after receiving such a loss i can truly create art. Heartbreak is a funny thing and it seems so unbearable for the first few days for me... yet maybe a week later its just a dull throb, It seems that being conditioned to abandonment  allows me to become a quick healer, evolving emotionally and hopefully artistically Как т&

Its odd that i can feel so happy and still be sick to my stomach, i guess it makes a difference when youve got a new beginning and being actually happy for the first time in a long time. its nice having someone that inspires me to draw again (drawings i hope will make it to here) but i get really lazy when it concerns uploading. anyways im just up really early playing to the porcelain goddess yet happy..... emotions are so weird.